i was called into the meeting room today. we had a conversation about how good i was doing and what was holding me back. things were mentioned about my attitude. apparently, my attitude is not the brightest and my tone could be slightly off.

really dear wunderkind, tell me what is next?

getting ready to move again feeling like my life is entirely stagnet and boring. very little of the things that i could do to typically make it okay – all seem very fleeting… very bland. all personal growth has stopped. i’d say something clever about it hasn’t just stopped but how maybe it has derailed from the tracks and all the twisted wreckage lay years cold in rain that is currently coming down.

i won’t though. that would belittle real wreckage. that would also not be fair to someone with real problems.

this will be cut short. there is nothing really willing to come out of me right now but my own pandering and selfish flails.