Hello. This track is on loop and nothing you have to say matters. In all fairness, nothing, I’m going to say will matter either. This is what I like about things.

I like the talking in circles.

Lazy days of watching cartoons on the couch and just being there. Deciding what would be the best course to chart for lunch and/or dinner. Who is coming over to visit with us on the weekend?

None of it matters.

Tonight I came home and started unpacking and eating my dinner. I fucking lost it. I don’t know how long I was crying but it was enough for my head to hurt and my eyes feel swollen.

Am I upset for what has changed, what I’ve lost, what I’ve gained? What could be? What might be?

Mostly, I’m upset because I’m playing pretend and I would of liked to of put my toys away long ago. Put my head in a lap and just close my eyes.

Forgetting for a moment I have sharp teeth.

…nothing I wanted to share tonight came out right. Which is pretty much the status quo.